I think I am meant to write this post today. The mood is set. The evening lights are on. Its Sunday after all and I had tea and inipu paniyaram. Checked in with my husband on the plans for tonight and tomorrow, and we decided to stay home tonight. It has been pretty gloomy the whole day, and its been a long day too.  Sometimes you don’t know the changes you are going through till the time you see changed behaviour in yourself.

I believe I am just exiting from a season in my life where nothing was working for me. I was tired waiting for things to change, being angry at my efforts not getting translated into desired outcomes, and just stuck, y’know. In the last couple of months, I became intentional about everything I do, say and see. Nothing was left to chance. I gave it all to God. Reassessed what I am doing with the gifts I have been given, how I deal with myself, family and work in general.

I am not sure how to elucidate the changes I underwent. The closest example I can draw is, you don’t see much of a change from a larva to a butterfly but the growth and metamorphosis is astounding. Simply put, the changes were all internal (which matters the most). I have been put through the wringer. It was intense mental and emotional growth. The process has built resilience, made me courageous, and discouraged me from self-doubt and second-guessing. I can see the changes, and it’s life changing.

This post’s purpose is to tell anyone going through a dry phase, not seeing any growth or change to their situation, to not give up. It might look like there is no progress or no light at the end of this tunnel, but trust me. If you stay low, put in the work, be sincere and keep at it, you will see the results. Look at an egg, it looks the same throughout the incubation process *the dry phase so to speak* but brings out a beautiful life at the right time, after enduring the right pressure.

Don’t be disheartened, the beginning is the hardest, but when you prepare your mind and body to support the decision you have made to improve your life, things will fall in place. I have been writing this post on and off for 3 days now and am still not fully convinced. I want the reader to know in their core that whatever you are going through will end. This is not your life. This is just a bad phase, but a necessary and crucial period. You may hate every moment of it and may want to scream, sob and kick. Do it, but don’t give up. Go through the storm, you will be a new person worthy and ready to face the next stage in your life. You got this <3