If you had read my previous blogs, you would know I am in a transition period. The in-between. It is a tricky place to be as you are winding up parts of your life from the past season while preparing yourself to enter into the new season of life.
The transition that I am going through right now is in my career and personal life. The toll its taking on me in gruesome. I am constantly left emotional and mentally exhausted. Sleepless, overthinking, stressed and what not. In moments like these, I consider why I chose to take this break. The reasons justify the misery, no? Growth is a process, learning happens over a period of time, change can seem like a game over, but it’s truly a game changer.
Every area of your life is bound to change. I am not sure how well you can grasp the reality of what it means to be in a constant circuit of change. This type of shaking up may sometimes feel like, you are being pushed over by the tide of life, and that you have no control but to simply trust and rest in the Lord (in my case atleast). Its interesting too, because it is you who desired and decided to reinvent yourself, but to have an optimistic and confident attitude about it seems frightful. However, that’s exactly what the waiting period is supposed to be. Like a gardener doing his part and waiting for the seeds to come forth, bud, bloom and yield its fruits.
It’s poetic and wistful in retrospect and hindsight, but truly distressing and wearisome in the moment. This is where grace comes to play. Notice, I did not say grace to the rescue (though that happens too), but in this season in my life, He gave grace to endure and sustain. Alrighty, I started this post to share what it meant to be in the interim – it is a hopeful time because I am led by Jesus Himself, you can’t experience trustworthiness anymore than Him. Its sometimes sombre and lonesome too, because its hard to trust the process.
May this blog come as an encouragement and a friendly hug to anyone who is in a waiting period in their life. Trust in God and trust His timing. Everything will fall in place. Not a big fan of trusting yourself (what does that even mean?). – Have questions, drop a comment. Would love to discuss.
P.S. Next post about PSDV, not the same as PTSD but disastrous nonetheless. Keep an eye out! Coming to you this week.